So I add another scar to the tally, another ghost to the back of my mind — a version of me who kept going, who didn’t turn left when she knew she should have gone straight.
And the worst line? Not the lie itself. It’s the quiet after — when you look in the mirror and think, “Of course. I knew you would.” i cheated myself like i knew i would lyrics
“I cheated myself, like I knew I would.” So I add another scar to the tally,
That’s the cruelest part: the knowing . The slow walk toward a decision already made, watching from the bleachers as I sabotage the finish line. I could feel it coming — the small surrender, the comfortable lie dressed as self-compassion. It’s the quiet after — when you look
The saddest fraud isn’t the one you commit on others. It’s the one you commit on yourself, with a signature only you recognize, on a contract you wrote alone in the dark.